Monday, March 31, 2008

Nine Months Old!

I try really, really hard not to say this every month because I know how cliche it sounds. But I cannot believe Tula is now 9 months old! Time is flying by! This is such a fun age, she has become so aware of her surroundings and has developed this little personality that I am getting to know more and more everyday. Just seeing her develop into this little tiny person has been so fun, this month really flew for me and honestly it was probably one of my favorites.

Tula is so easy right now!!! Sleep has gotten so much better, she is usually only waking once per night. She goes down around 8 and wakes around 4 am to eat, then goes right back down and usually sleeps till around 7 or 7:30. She has been waking a little earlier sometimes, and even 7 is much earlier than what I am used to (she slept till 9 for the longest time) but the fact that we are all getting such great sleep throughout the night makes up for it so I really am not complaining. The best part is that she wakes up and plays in her crib for awhile before letting out her little yelps for me to come get her. When I go into her room she has the worlds biggest smile for me everyday, without fail. There could not be a sweeter thing to wake up to, and as tired as I may be stumbling down the hall to her room in the morning, the smile I get as a reward for going in and picking her up is worth every missed minute of sleep.

Oh yeah, she is now officially pulling herself up on everything. This really just started in the last week or so. She had tried a few times before that but now every morning I go in there and find her either kneeling or standing, holding onto her crib bars for dear life. Now that the weather has been a little warmer and she is out of her footed PJ's she is finding it a lot easier to get the balance she needs to pull herself up. I realized this last Thursday, we had an all day jammy day (I has a nasty 24 hour flu bug) and as hard as it was for both of us t stay cooped up in the house all day, I think Tula really enjoyed it. Mommy had to pull out all the tricks. First of all, I have never done this before but I pretty much had the TV on for her all day long. That way, she would be somewhat entertained when I had to bolt to the bathroom for what felt like forever. She loved to just hang out in the big room pulling herself up on everything. She would stand at the ottoman with one hand holding herself up and kind of lean against it and watch TV. It was really cute. She just looked so old standing there, when I would come into the room and see her I almost couldn't believe it.

Now, after a few days of it, we are having to start with the "No's". Now that she is mobile with crawling AND able to pull herself up she can get into pretty much anything. The first few days it was cute, and I liked watching her explore and see everything for the first time. She loves opening up anything and taking out its contents right now. Baskets, boxes, cupboards, drawers, you name it. So I have tarted to be selective with which ones she can play in and which ones she can't. For example, in the kitchen, she can go into the Tupperware cabinet but not the one that holds all the baking stuff. So tonight when she would open the wrong one I would say (sternly) "Hey!" to get her attention, and then "No." Well she like the "hey" part and although she didn't have it down perfect she was definitely trying to mimic me. She kept making a similar noise to get my attention in the kitchen and would point at me, like I pointed at her when I said it.

The babbling has really increased and I am starting to notice her trying to copy sounds and noises that I make. Even facial and hand expressions sometimes. She pretty much has waving figured out. Oh yeah, the other day during out sick TV day I someone on the TV said "bye" and she started waving at the TV. How cute is that? Sometimes she misses the boat and waves after someone is gone (she did that to the waitress ho patiently waited forever to catch a wave). As soon as she was gone, Tula gave her a great big wave. To be witnessed only by Mommy and Grandpa. What a kid. She is definitely saying Dada and I am pretty sure she knows what it means, she even has said Da-Dee a few times. But Mama is not even close. I have never heard any sort of an "M" sound come from her at all and she thinks it is just a silly word judging by the look she gives me every time I try and say it to her. She is gonna make me wait for that one, I guess. I am so excited to hear it I can hardly stand it! For now, I will take my "Hey" grunts with the point. That really made me laugh tonight.

It has been such an interesting month watching her personality develop. I feel like now that she is able to communicate a little better with me what she likes/needs/wants it really has given me an opportunity to get to know her better. She is not just the baby she once was to me. With food, she insists that she look into the bowl of dinner before I start feeding her. She won't take a bite until she knows what color dinner is. And right now, if its green, she is not happy about it. She also loves her routine, which reminds me so much of her Daddy. I know its a baby thing too, but she especially loves going for her after dinner walk. She will sit in the stroller so happy. But I sometimes feel like she is just as happy about the fact that she knew a walk was next than the fact we are actually walking. She loves to eat first in the mornings before anything else. She is all smiles till I bring her into bed with me and we snuggle while she nurses. If I dare try and change her diaper first, she freaks. She likes it to be the same every morning. Eat first, then diaper. She likes to hold a water bottle while riding in her carseat. She actually has been known to get quite upset if she drops said water bottle at any point during the car ride. She likes Daddy to do bathtime, becaue he usually does, and seems annoyed and just not near as happy when I do it. Just all these little things that she likes done a certain way, and she is not happy when you try and switch it up on her.

We started Rolly pollies this month as well, which is kind of like a baby gym. We joined with her little friends Dani, Kayden and Tatum. It's an hour long Mommy and Me class once a week. We sing a couple songs together, but mostly it is a playtime for her and the other babies. There are all sorts of neat and new things for her to try. A little baby rollercoaster (see video below), a platform swing, a foam pit, a trampoline. A lot of different stuff you wouldn't see anywhere else. I find it is a time to really see her personality by watching how she reacts to all the new surroundings. And maybe its watching her along with the other kids and comparing her in a way. I see some that will dive in and try anything. Some seem to be having so much fun. Tula is very unphased. She is having fun, but loves to watch. She wont just attempt a new activity, she likes to see everyone else do it first. If the other kids seem to be having fun, she will try. If she is just with me, and we are off doing our own thing, she will go back to trusting my reactions and encouragement, but when others are around she likes to watch them as well too get a feel for the situation. She just really seems to be an observer right now, which makes me think even more about how she is her Daddy's girl. That is so similar to John. Don't get me wrong, I see me in her from time to time as well, but I do love seeing her not just look like her Dad, but acting like him too. John has such a gentle spirit, and it seems to be rubbing off on her. She is sooooo chill!

John has been working so much lately. Really long days and lots of weekends. So Tula and I have getting know each other extra well....lol. As much fun as it has been, I really love being home with her and am so thankful that I can be, it has been more exhausting than I ever imagined. It could b the pregnancy as well, I almost 20 weeks and getting bigger by the day. The days John doesn't get home till after she is in bed are tough though, because I literally DO NOT get a break from the time she wakes up till bedtime. It can make for an exhausted Mommy sometimes. Thankfully, I have a great group of friends here and a Mommy Group to chat with and get lots of love and support. I am so thankful for all of them, I don't know what i would do without them in my daily life. It has made bing a First Time Mom so fun, sharing the experiences with others going through the same thing, and I am excited to have made some friends who I hope will be a part of our lives for a long, long time. Having them around has been such a joy it has *almost* taken the sting away of missing my hubby so much while he's been working like a dog. Thanks Ladies!

So other than that there is not too much new. I took Tula to get her weighed and she is pretty much off the charts for her size. At 9 months old, weighing in at a whopping 15 pounds, 8 ounces (they didn't check her height this month). She weighs the same as she did two months ago. last month, she had lost a little, I guess because of crawling and just starting to be on the move and burning more calories. So she packed a little wight back on but not enough to keep her on the charts. But she is strong and healthy and thriving and I guess that is all that counts. I hear "She is so tiny" all the time and I guess I don't really notice till I see her beside other kids her age. She really is just a little tiny thing. I keep telling her she will be thankful for those genes in about 13 years, and every time she put on a bikini after that...lol. Seriously, she is healthy and well, but yes, she is definitely on the "petite" side. who's kidding who, she is keeping her weight down cause she feels sorry for her preggo Mama who still has to lug her butt around. I don't know what I would do if she was an average size. Yikes! She is still eating solids three times a day and nursing between 5 and 6 times a day. I have tried giving her milk in a sippy cup but she isn't overly interested. She likes Cheerios for a mid morning and mid afternoon snack. Finger foods are becoming increasingly popular, sometimes she insists on feeding herself and refuses anything from the spoon (what's with that?!?!) Most of the time she is a pretty good eater, I don't think she is that picky but I think it has more to do with the whole routine thing I mentioned earlier. She is still on a banana strike (two months now, I am convinced she will hate then forever). She eats apples mixed with cereal for breakfast, Cheerios for snack, yogurt for lunch (she get really mad if I try and switch this up), Cheerios or MumMums for afternoon snack then sweet potatoes for dinner. Sometimes alone or mixed with a green veggie. She loves to snack on defrosted frozen peas and carrots after her dinner. Sometimes after her lunchtime yogurt I will give her bits of whatever I am eating (usually just whatever is in my wrap) and she seems to like that. I still find most of what I cut up and give in the side of her high chair so she is def not ready to self feed an actual meal to herself. Oh yeah, Grilled Cheese seems to be an exception to the rule. She made sure not to drop a bite. Do we have a selective "dropper" on our hands? Uh-oh!

Kay, its 1 am and WAY past my bedtime! I am 3 months away from her first birthday and am totally in shock. I said to my sister the other day I am glad I am pregnant cause I am already missing my baby baby. Sometimes I go in and see her in her crib and she is absolutely, without a doubt, a little girl laying there and I can't remember when that happened. I must have blinked. Shoot. I said I wasn't going to do that.... I am really going to try and soak up the next few months of babyness with Tula and am looking forward to the summer with her. We are going swimming with all her friends tomorrow and it should be lots of fun! I will try and post some pics of it if I remember to whip out the camera at all. For now, here is a new one of Tula from this afternoon, pulling herself up on the stool in her bedroom. Enjoy!

Sunday, March 23, 2008

Rollercoaster Ride!

Happy Easter Everyone!

Just wanted to say happy Easter from our family to yours! Today is such a special day for me, I love Easter and celebrating it's true meaning. I love knowing that although I don't know WHY he died for me, I know he did. And I believe and am thankful for that more than anything. This year is so special to celebrate this holiday with our precious Tula. Having her in my life has given me such a clear understanding of the depths of my Heavenly Father's love for me. I now understand when they talk about how "there is nothing you can do to make him love you anymore, or any less." I get that it is comepletly unconditional. And when I look at Tula and think about how I would do absolutely anything for her, I realize that as confusing and complex as my Christian walk may be, God's love for me (and you!) and is really that simple. He dies for me because I am his Child and as my Heavenly Father he just wouldn't have it any other way. And all I can do is accept, receive, and be thankful for it.

Thank You, Father, for revealing to me through a perfect child your perfect love for me. I am so grateful for the clarity that being a Mother can bring in the midst of all of the chaos and confusion of having a baby. For every moment that I have been able to sit and reflect on my love for Tula I imagine you have done the same for me, and although there are many days that I feel completely unworthy, I take comfort knowing that I do not have to earn your love and nothing can take it away. Help me to be a gracious, forgiving, and humble parent in times when these things are needed. Thank you so much for a wonderful year, this amazing child, and a new and deeper understanding of what Easter really means! Amen.

Tula wore her bunny ears to church today and also had on the frilliest, laciest, fluffiest dress in the house! No one could walk by her without commenting on how gorgeous she looked. It was adorable. We went for lunch after and Tula ate her first grilled cheese sandwich off the kid's menu! Grandma cut it up into little pieces for her and she gobbled it all up! And by all, I mean about a quarter of the sandwich. It was cute but I cannot believe we are getting to "that stage" where not everything that enters her mouth has to be pureed first. I looked across the table at the little girl sitting there eating her grilled cheese and sipping from the straw and wondered where my baby went. When does that feeling go away? Could it ever? Will I always look at her and remember when she curled in a ball on my chest and fit perfectly in the crook of my arm? Anyways, sappy or not, she ate grilled cheese and I guess we have a new fav food, though we won't be making a habit of those for awhile. She drank water like a madwoman all afternoon and I think there was a *little* more sodium in there than the daily rec'd intake for a 9 month old. For now, we will stick to our fruits and veggies and all that fun stuff. But good to know its an option if I am in a pinch!

Well, there is a 9 month update coming up this week. I can hardly believe it! For now, I will leave you with a video and lyrics to a song I herd in church today that I just loved. I am sure lots of you have heard it but for those who haven't, here ya go! Enjoy!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MOb8ihacSM4

To everyone who's lost someone they love
long before it was their time.
You feel like the days you had were not enough
when you said goodbye.

And to all of the people with burdens and pains
keepin' you back from your life.
You believe that there's nothing
and there is no one who can make it right.

There is hope for the helpless, rest for the weary,
and love for the broken hearts.
There is grace and forgiveness, mercy and healing
He'll meet you wherever you are.

Cry out to Jesus. Cry out to Jesus.

For the marriage that's struggling just to hang on
They lost all of their faith in love.
and they've done all they can to make it right again
still it's not enough.

For the ones who can't break the addictions and chains
you try to give up but you come back again.
Just remember that you're not alone
in your shame and your suffering.

There is hope for the helpless, rest for the weary,
and love for the broken hearts.
There is grace and forgiveness, mercy and healing
He'll meet you wherever you are.

Cry out to Jesus.

When you're lonely and it feels like the whole world is falling on you
you just reach out, you just cry out to Jesus

Cry to Jesus.

To the widow who suffers from being alone,
wipin' the tears from her eyes.
For the children around the world without a home,
say a prayer tonight.

There is hope for the helpless, rest for the weary,
and love for the broken hearts.
There is grace and forgiveness, mercy and healing
that meets you wherever you are.
There is hope for the helpless, rest for the weary,
and love for the broken hearts.
There is grace and forgiveness, mercy and healing
that meets you wherever you are.

Sunday, March 16, 2008

Friday, March 14, 2008

Wednesday, March 5, 2008

Somebody's Hero



She's never pulled anyone from a burning building
She's never rocked Central Park to a half a million fans, screaming out her name
She's never hit a shot to win the game
She's never left her footprints on the moon
She's never made a solo hot air balloon ride, around the world,
No, she's just your everyday average girl (but)

She's somebody's hero
A hero to her baby with a skinned up knee
A little kiss is all she needs
The keeper of the cheerios
The voice that brings Snow White to life
Bedtime stories every night
And that smile lets her know
She's somebody's hero

She didn't get a check every week like a nine-to fiver
But she's been a waiter, and a cook and a taxi driver
For twenty years, there at home, until the day her girl was grown
Giving all her love to her was her life's ambition
But now her baby's movin' on, and she'll soon be missin' her
But not today, those are tears of joy runnin' down her face

She's somebody's hero
A hero to her daughter in her wedding dress
She gave her wings to leave the nest
It hurts to let her baby go down the aisle she walks right by
Looks back into her mother's eyes
And that smile lets her know
She's somebody's hero

Thirty years have flown right past
Her daughters' starin' at all the photographs
Of her mother, and she wishes she could be like that
Oh, but she already is

She's somebody's hero
A hero to her mother in a rockin' chair
She runs a brush through her silver hair
The envy of the nursing home
She drops by every afternoon
Feeds her mama with a spoon
And that smile lets her know
Her mother's smile lets her know
She's somebody's hero

Monday, March 3, 2008

8 Months Old!



Everyone warned me about this and it is happening now more than ever. Time is flying by. Tula turned EIGHT months old the other day and it really was almost impossible to believe. There have been "monthly birthdays" of hers that haven't really phased me, maybe because of a busy schedule or holidays or just not thinking enough about it. But this was definitely not one of them. Friday night ended up being a pretty emotional one for me. I just cannot get over how fast the time has went by. And now that Tula is changing and growing so quickly it seems to be flying by even faster.

This is truly a fun age and stage that Tula is going through. First of all, I have really noticed this month how much *easier* she has become. Just with everything. The carseat is no longer an issue. She used to HATE the carseat and it made me feel panicky anytime I had to drive anywhere with her. I think that stage has been over for a lot longer than this month, or at least getting better for awhile. But this month I really noticed it to be a non issue. I can actually pop her in and out of the seat to go do things. Like, more than once. It used to be that if we were going anywhere she could come out of the seat twice, max, before going into hysterics when I put her into it again. Now, I can take her out and run into Starbucks or Costco and it is a non-issue. I have found a new freedom in this and sometimes feel like my old self, able to bomb around town doing little errands and not thinking twice about stopping here or there. of course, its not QUITE that's easy, but close enough. I am so glad the carseat-hating days are gone! Those were rough times! Oh yeah, this month we switched Tula to her "big-girl" carseat(I just realized I never posted the pictures of that, I need to get them from my Mom). Anyways, she loves her new carseat and really does look so much bigger and older in it. It's a little higher up and makes looking out the window so much easier for her. She loves to check out the view while we drive, and now that the weather is nicer she likes it if I roll the back windows down for her too. Quite the little Arizona girl, if I do say.

So besides the fact that this month is the first month of Tula being officially "on the move" there have been a few other changes or "first" as well. A big one, Tula had her dedication on Feb 10th, so I guess she was about 7 and a half months old. It was a really special day for us, we love having family around and this brought a bunch of both John and my families to town for a few days. It was great to have the company and show of support for such a special day in Tula's life. The service was very simple and short (this is important with a room full of babies) but it was a special reminder to both John and I of why we are so blessed to have this little girl but what a responsibility it is as well. I have always been taught about "with great privilege come great responsibility" and those words are never truer than when talking about parenting. It has been a great reminder to John and I to keep ourselves and our actions in check. Our attitudes, our words, our expressions of feelings, our priorities. She is starting to just absorb everything and I constantly find myself reevaluating the smallest things and making sure the decision I made is in line with the decision I would want Tula to make when she is older. It is NOT always easy or fun, but it is another way that being Tula's mommy has been a test to my character and teaching me to live the best way I know how.

As far as food goes, I feel like things have changed so much since the last time I posted about her eating was when she turned 6 months old. That was about two months ago, and in "babyland", that is about a million years. As you can see from pictures in the mac gallery from Feb, she has really started eating solid "finger foods". She loves to feed herself. Little bits of cheddar cheese, cheerios, cut up cucumber or banana. I have even let her try Ritz crackers. And, yes, you can see in her pictures she was sucking on a rib bone at Houston's out for dinner with Grandpa and Grandma. Grandpa snuck it to her and she loved it so much I couldn't bear to take it away (she was just sucking on the sauce) but that probably won't happen again for awhile. I think I am going to try and keep her meat-free for as long as possible, at least till she is one, I am thinking. I have an easy time letting her try all sorts of new foods, but meats just bug me and I don't really know why. Well, maybe I do but we won't get into that. Let's just say after that huge beef recall this month I seriously considered becoming vegetarian myself and it reaffirmed my "no meat" decision for Tula. Who's kidding who, I could never give up meat completely, but Tula doesn't "need" it yet so as for now, she is a vegetarian. ooh, though she did try egg yolk for the first time this month as well. I fried her her own little omelet and cut up some cheese and she loved it. I think more than the new foods she loves all the new textures. And of course she knows when she is eating what mommy eats (I have eggs every morning) that makes her feel like such a big girl. Today we went out for a Greek dinner and she had some pita with us. John even dipped it in a little tzaziki for her to try. She didn't love the dip, but the pita made her feel pretty cool. It was cute to watch. She is really becoming this little person, just sitting there eating with us. Oh, and there is another reason that life is easier. Restaurants. Now that she is totally comfortable sitting up in her highchair she is happy (for the most part) to sit there and let us enjoy a meal while she munchies on a MumMum or some cheerios. What a treat! Oh, she hasn't tried any juice yet but a friend of mine had given us some lemons and oranges. Yesterday I chopped one of the oranges in half and squeezed it into her sippy cup with her water and she seemed to like it. She still doesn't drink a tonne from her sippy, when we go on walks and its hot I catch her drinking from time to time. And she seems to tell me when she is eating solids by putting her fingers in her mouth that she is thirsty. She will just stop eating and keep her hands in front of her mouth (or in her mouth) until I give her a sip. I guess she is developing her own form of sign language....lol. It's working though! As far as foods go, I can't think of anything else really new. Still eating three solids meals a day. Still doesn't *love* greens (though she did eat her spinach the other day when I mixed it with pears...how does THAT happen?). Still nursing about 4 times a day (between each meal) and once or twice throughout the night. Still eating most of her food pureed. The finger food thing she finds "fun" but most of it ends up on the floor and I have to feed her something afterwards anyways. It buys me a little time and she enjoys herself though so we both win.

What else is new? Hmmmm......Tula had her first bath in the real tub. It was with me, but still. She had fun. We still use an infant tub for her, its huge and she can sit up in there but John (who does the bathing) finds it easier and she likes her little tubbie. But one day I decided I wanted to get in there with er and she loved the company. I think she missed the comfort of her small little tub where her toys could never float away from her reach, but she seemed completely fearless reaching for them. She seems to love the water, always has I guess. I can't wait till the weather gets just a little nicer and the pools are arm enough for her to go into again. She loved swimming last summer and I hope she does just as much this year! I think we are going to start lessons in April on Saturday mornings so John and I can rotate weeks. He is looking forward to swimming with her as well, that's one thing he loves to do with her.

The weather here has really changed the last two or three weeks. It is a beautiful time of year to live here. I think last week it was high 70s or low 80s every day. Tula and I have been taking advantage of the great weather by walking everyday. She loves it. There was one day nothing seemed to entertain her, she was not a happy camper. In the stroller we went and she was content the whole time. Most of the time we walk for about 30-45 minutes and she doesn't make a peep. Well that's not true, if the sun is in her eyes she lets me know. That is one thing I am learning she does not like at all! Maybe not so much of an AZ girl after all? Do you have to love the sunshine to be a true Arizonian? Hmm.....well she will get enough of it this summer to last a lifetime so I guess she will learn. I laughed cause the other day near the end of our walk she was getting fussy because it was getting a little warm. Maybe it was 83,84? I am thinking, "Girlfriend, if you think this is bad, you have NO idea." Its going to be a hot summer, that's for sure.

Tula is also babbling like crazy and has found her "scream". she loves to use it to show any emotion, especially excitement. She obviously has no concept of when this is appropriate so it is an issue from time to time. But it's fairly new so its all still cute for now...lol. I will let you know next month how "uncute" it has become. Tula still loves pee-a-boo. One of her all time favorite games is "Where's Tula?" and then me finding her. She will laugh with excitement when she knows I have almost found her and kicks and flails her arms when I do. Oh, and another game she loves is when I talk to her dolls. She especially loves when I kiss them or talk to them *about* her. If I say to the doll, "Mommy LOVES Tula" or "Tula LOVES Mommy" or something like that and act very lost in the conversation with the doll she seems to love that. It's sweet.

No more teeth for now, but those bottom two are growing big and now completely visible with every smile and babble. I constantly find myself shocked when I see them in a picture of her and then remember they ave been there for over a month. I look back on pictures and can't believe how much she has changed and grown over the last 8 months. I see pictures of that tiny newborn and the Mommy who thought her baby would stay little forever. And although I thought I "knew better" at the time, I realize now that I had no idea. I was reading back on my blog the other night at the post about her being one weeks old. It said "Well Happy One Week Birthday Tula! Thank you so much for the most amazing week of my life so far. I love being your Mommy and you are sweet perfection to me. Thank you for showing me what the word Mommy really means. I had no idea what I was getting myself into, but I am loving every minute of it!" Now as true as this was at the time for me, I look back and think, "I didn't even know her then", and "I love her a million times more today than I did then" and "I had NO IDEA what the word Mommy really meant until now". And I guess that's what this Mama business is all about. About growing everyday, in life and in love, with this little thing who is growing up everyday as well.

I love going through this growing journey with you Tula. I love waking up everyday thinking that I love you a million times more than I did yesterday. I love your smile and laugh that fills every nook and cranny of me with joy every time I hear and see it. To say you are the world to me wouldn't be enough. Mommy and Daddy love you more than you will ever know!