To My Love,
Well it's hard to believe but it was a year ago today that I married my best friend. How time flies when you are having the time of your life, and it has been a blur since the day I met you. I wanted to post a picture of our anniversary, a memory of the day and how it was spent, or something representative of our year together. A wedding photo, a honeymoon pic, the photo of a positive pregnancy test, another belly shot. But when I looked over at you laying beside me sleeping I couldn't resist taking a snap and adding it to my collection of all the beautiful memories we have made in the past year. It's this photo, tonight, that fills me to the brim with love and emotions. Now it's quite possible that some of the weepy emotions are due in part to the fact that I am almost 38 weeks pregnant, but I would like to think that it is just days like today that remind me of how I am busting at the seams with love for you. And not just the posing you in the tux, or the smiling you on the beach, or the loving and caring you holding my belly. The you that rests so peacefully beside me at the end of each and every day is the fondest mental snapshot that I hold most dear to my heart, and thats the one that I choose to represent the last year of my life with you. That is the man I love more than anything.
You know, before the wedding I had very few fears about going though with it. I had that peace that surpasses all understanding, in spite of any concerns that may have came about. But the last year has shown me that although some of my concerns were normal, I had nothing to worry about. Some of the things I feared the most became some of the ways that I have felt loved the deepest by you. My worries about becoming bored of or with eachother were replaced by the joys of feeling completely content in your arms alone. The fear of not knowing what lies ahead has lead to many dreams fulfilled already, and a family and house and all that life has to offer just around the corner. A concern about feeling like an old married lady is now anticipation of becoming that "old lady" with you by my side, and all that life will bring along the way. Wondering if the day-to-day repetition of a marriage would ruin the life and zest of our relationship is over now that I have experienced the joys of a routine and life with you that need not be the least bit exciting to be just as full of love as the majestic "honeymoon stage". Who knew that a trip to Costco was romantic? Or a take out salad and parking down by the marina was better than a fancy restaurant? Who knew an episode of Dirty Jobs can be just as entertaining as a trip to the theatre? I sure didn't, and maybe you didn't either. But God did, and I thank him every day for you and this beautiful marriage he has given us. I thank him for turning my fears into little revelations about the quality of man and husband you are, and the constant reminders that I made no mistake, rather, the best choice I could have possibly made in choosing a mate.
And I thank you, My Love, for becoming that man, for being that man, and for remaining that man that I married a year ago today. You truly amaze me. I cannot wait to spend up all my years loving you and our family that we are about to create. I am more in love with you everyday. Thank you for the most beautiful year of my life, and the promise by your actions that this year was just the beginning of a lifetime of wonderful years to come. I am the luckiest girl John. I love you.
Sleep tight. Happy Anniversary.
Christa
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